"I am doing it! I am not a runner and I am
running! Whoo hoo!" The woman at the bus stop must have thought I was crazy as I ran past her yelling with excitement. It was the first time I had run in years! I could not believe that I was doing it. I could not believe the feeling of euphoria that came over me as I felt my body willingly take one step at a time. The running felt so good that I got up early the next morning to run again. As I started out, I could feel myself holding back. It made me curious, what was I holding back for? As soon as I asked the question, my head flooded with answers; "Hold back, so you can last the length of the run. Hold back, so you do not get yourself worn out. Hold back, because you cannot keep this pace up." As soon as those thoughts crossed my mind, I knew what I had to do. I told my body that I would listen to it and that I didn't need to listen to the chatter of self-doubt that was being created in my head. I promised my body that I would stop, slow down or allow a walking break if needed. With that permission, I opened myself up to let the lead out! That day, I took 4 minutes off of my 2 mile run. This experience made me want to become aware of other areas where I had been holding myself back. Today, I declare, I am no longer willing to hold myself back! Where are you currently holding yourself back? What does it look like for you to trust yourself and run free?
