Laughing Through the Crap

I woke this morning with a heavy cloud hanging over me. My thoughts were consumed by everything that was seemingly going "wrong" in my day and in my life. Recognizing that it was important for me to move from this space, I decided to make that happen. My movement involved going for a walk with my daughter. As we were walking, my thoughts brightened a bit. With the darkness letting a little light in, I noticed I was still feeling stuck with the cloud hanging over me. Only now it was quite literal. The sky was getting dark as the storm predicted for our area was closing in all around us. I was feeling horrible, physically and emotionally. I was walking with my 2 month old daughter attached to me snuggled in her wrap. As we were walking she had a blow out bowel movement. It leaked out of her diaper, onto her wrap, onto her clothes, on my clothes, everywhere.
"Great! Now I'm not only feeling like crap, I'm covered in it too!" And that is when it hit me. Of course I was covered in and surrounded in crap. What else could I expect? All morning I had been giving my attention to negative, crappy energy! The thought that my negative energy and attention to it may have contributed to creating the mess of the situation, made me laugh out loud as I was clearing away the mess from my daughter and all over me.
Have you ever had one of those days. It starts off sour and it continues to intensify and get seemingly WORSE? How could your energy and way of being in your day be contributing to your mess? What would it take for you to make a shift? How much crap will you be smothered by before you shift your energy toward the positive and what you WANT to create? Take notice of where your energy is. With that awareness, where is that energy taking your attention?. What are you giving your attention to? What is it producing in your life? If your thoughts become your reality, what are you creating for yourself today? Gotta run, I have more poop to clean up from my daughter's bottom again, this time it is contained and not all over! Thanks Sweet Girl for being such a wonderful teacher to your momma!

Weeding Through Fears

As  I was weeding the garden last week, I reached down to grab a handful of dead leaves when I realized that my hand was only inches away from a peacefully coiled up snake.  I jumped.  The snake remained very calm.  The snake stuck around long enough for me to point him out to a friend, "Look what I almost reached down to grab".  As I tell this story, I hear many reactions.  One reaction in particular caught my attention.  A friend said, "You know, I've been telling my daughter all about how bugs won't hurt her saying 'honey, you are much bigger than them, they won't bother you.  They are more afraid of you than you are of them.'  The funny part is, maybe I should listen to my own advice when it comes to snakes."
I couldn't help and think about how this relates to the fears I have in my own life.  Are my fears as frightening as I've been telling myself they are?  Are they waiting for me to attend to them and recognize that they are NOT as scary as I thought?
One such fear of mine is writing a blog, sharing my thoughts for all to see and for all to form an opinion about.  The more I reflect on it, the more I realize that the fear is holding me back from making it happen.  The truth is, I enjoy sharing my thoughts.  I appreciate the conversation and discussion from sharing and interacting with others.  It allows me to honor my value of evolving growth.  When I'm honest with myself, I recognize that I do not have much to lose. Instead, I have much to gain!  I will no longer let the fear of writing a blog stop me from making it happen!  I'm ready to share my thoughts.  I welcome your feedback.  I invite you to share  your opinions!  I welcome you to create dialogue in this safe space.  I release my fear and trust that it isn't going to jump up and bite me.  What fear are you ready to give attention to?  How would attending to it propel you toward honoring your values?  What value would you be honoring by reclaiming your power and quieting your fear?